When we can't help but wait.

This is a post I have been attempting to wait for weeks. First I put it off multiple times- and then I finally wrote it last week and forgot to save it. So today- it looks like it just might happen. I didn't really want to write a blog post about waiting on baby because I felt it was cliche and questioned this topic thinking maybe people don't want to read about me waiting on baby- but the truth is- even if you're not waiting on a little babe to "pop" out every person reading this post can certainly relate to waiting on something to happen. So it's happening- I'm sharing my heart today in an attempt to touch yours no matter where you are at in life today. 

The waiting process has went something like this: fearful, hopeful, then antsy- now attempting to trust. When I first found out that I might have baby Gilbert early (after the accident) I was first fearful- fearful it would be too soon-I cried and prayed that he would stay in long enough to be okay. After weeks of prayers and nerves I started to become hopeful thinking it would be just around the corner- he would be here soon and we prepared to welcome him into the world. After a few weeks of being prepared - I became antsy and have been antsy. Everyday I have gotten up in the morning I have thought to myself today is gonna be the day!!!! Especially after my doctors appointment yesterday I thought my odds were good. Butttttt today little man isn't here and I woke up greeted by a thought from The Lord- at least I'm thinking this is what he had for me: my ways aren't your ways- this thought frustrated me. I thought to myself how isn't now the time?? It makes sense!! He's ready! Dr says let's go! I'm saying let's go- so God you must be mistaken - because now is it!!! But this thought kept coming back into my head: his ways aren't my ways, his timing isn't always my timing- but my goodness- the God of this universe does know best. Regardless if I think I know better- (whether I chose to admit it at the time or not) He does know best. Choosing to trust him only makes sense. Isaiah 55:8 says His thoughts are not our thoughts and His ways aren't ours. So- as much as I don't want to trust and surrender to His timing it only makes sense to. He really has known what was best from the start!!

Maybe today you can relate to anxiously waiting on something to happen today- you are convinced that right now would be the best time for something to happen. You have been praying for Gods timing but simultaneously thinking you know best- I encourage you to trust Him with this situation. I also encourage you to remind me to do the same. Take comfort in the fact that the same God who created you and me has your best interest in mind and loves you so ❤️